In the Water They Can't See You Cry

In the Water They Can't See You Cry

A Memoir

Book - 2012
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In a candid and ultimately uplifting memoir, international swimming star Amanda Beard reveals the truth about coming of age in the Olympic spotlight, the demons she battled along the way, and the newfound happiness that has proved to be her greatest victory.

In this candid and ultimately uplifting memoir, Olympic medalist Amanda Beard reveals the truth about coming of age in the spotlight, the demons she battled along the way, and the newfound happiness that has proved to be her greatest victory.

At the tender age of fourteen, Amanda Beard walked onto the pool deck at the Atlanta Olympics carrying her teddy bear, Harold, and left with two silvers and a gold medal. She competed in three more Olympic games, winning a total of seven medals, and enjoyed a lucrative modeling career on the side. At one point, she was the most downloaded female athlete on the Internet.

Yet despite her astonishing career and sex-symbol status, Amanda felt unworthy of all her success. Unaware that she was suffering from clinical depression, she hid the pain beneath a megawatt smile. With no other outlet for her feelings besides the pool, Amanda expressed her emotions through self-destructive behavior. In her late teens and twenties, she became bulimic, abused drugs and alcohol, and started cutting herself.

Her low self-esteem led to toxic relationships with high-profile men in the sports world. No one, not even her own parents and friends, knew about the turmoil she was going through. Only when she met her future husband, who discovered her cutting herself, did Amanda realize she needed help.

Through her renewed faith in herself; the love of her family; and finally the birth of her baby boy, Blaise, Amanda has transformed her life. In these pages, she speaks frankly about her struggles with depression, the pressures to be thin, and the unhealthy relationships she confused for love. In the Water They Can't See You Cry is a raw, compelling story of a woman who gained the strength to live as bravely out of the water as she did in it.
Publisher: New York : Simon & Schuster, 2012.
Edition: 1st Touchstone hardcover ed.
ISBN: 9781451644371
Branch Call Number: BIO Beard A. 04/2012
Characteristics: 248 p., [16] p. of plates :,col. ill. ;,24 cm.
Additional Contributors: Paley, Rebecca


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Apr 02, 2013

I just had a huge biography project to do on a person of choice, and I chose Amanda Beard after my friend did as well. At first, I thought it would be rather boring, but it actually is perfect to talk about in school. It has like stuff against peer pressure, drug use, and depression. A pretty good book for a project! And also, her life is pretty interesting and totally exposes the truth about the ugly world of fame.

Aug 09, 2012

I thought this was an interesting book. It definitely explores the dark side of athletic competitiveness.

Jul 18, 2012

Who would put their child through this? It begs us as a society to look at the dark side of Olympic training and what does it really mean...

nkontrol Jun 04, 2012

This book was totally corny. The perfect girl with the perfect family, the perfect life, all to nearly lose it all because she craved to be a lap dog.


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Jul 12, 2015

Tells the story of how Amanda Beard first got involved in swimming and her experiences going to the Olympics. Talks about her struggles in school, life outside the pool and her family life. She talks about how swimming was a refuge for her from some of the problems she had in her social life and also at times how much work it was and it created its own set of problems.


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